Archive for October, 2008

Defining Myself

I’m an aspiring writer, at least, I try buying books on how to write things. Amazon might want to get some freebie for me when they shipped 57th book on writing last month.

Have you thought of writing about yourself ? Every writing book starts something similar to this.

But, I hate defining myself. Well, to write better, there ain’t no bail-out plan.

To begin with, here are some clues to my character. It seems only fair that if you’re going to read what I write, I ought to tell you how I stand: I prefer sitting but when I stand, I stand in size 8 EEE shoes. There have been periods in my life when wide feet were my most distinguishing characteristic.

When it comes to politics, I don’t know whether I’m a Democratic or a Communist [not limited to Bangladeshi viewpoint]. When I was young I was under the mistaken impression that all Democratic party were Muslims and all Communist were Atheist. This turns out to be untrue, of course, and I’ve never decided which I am. Those of us who don’t have a party affiliation ought to be able to register under the heading “Confused.”

This morning the scale balanced at 165 pounds. l’m 5′8″. My mother always called me “sturdy” and said I have big bones. A little thin is what I am.

I have been accused for forgetting things.

I speak English, but Englishmen always pretend they don’t understand what I’m saying.

Defining Me and it is my opinion that prejudice saves us all a great deal of time. I have a great many well founded prejudices, and I have no intention of giving up any of them except for very good reasons. I don’t like alcohols and I don’t like smoking either. Call it prejudice if you wish, but I have no intention of ever trying either again just to make sure I don’t like them. I am sure.

Good ideas are overrated. It makes more difference how a writer handles an idea than what the idea was in the first place. The world is filled with people with good ideas and very short of people who can even rake a leaf. I’m tired of good ideas.

When I write, I use a fountain pen made in 1990, on papers. My office gave me a vaio laptop, but there’s no use pretending you can use machinery that thinks faster than you do. An laptop is ready to go before I have anything to say.

Writers don’t often say anything that readers don’t already know, unless it’s a news story. A writer’s greatest pleasure is revealing to people things they knew but did not know they knew. Or did not realize everyone else knew, too. This produces a warm sense of fellow feeling and is the best a writer can do.

There’s nothing mystical or magic about being a writer. A writer is just a person who writes something. There are almost no people who are not dentists who can fix teeth, but there are a lot of people who aren’t professional writers who write very well. This is one of the reasons why being a writer is tougher than being a dentist.

I admire people who don’t care what anyone else thinks about what they do, but I’m not one of them. I care what people think and would not want you to know how much I hope you like what I write.

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Healing Kind

They were married for five months, and three years later Kenny Chesney finally breaks his silence about the split from Oscar winning actress Renée Zellweger. Yes, it is all over in his new album. I don’t know, how do I say this, but I was never into her movies.

Hold on! This can’t be it! I hear you saying that.

This is kind of perfected mellow and introspective collection, it’s no more a country album but with subtle mix of gentle acoustic guitars, great piano accents and occasional steel drums actually added soothing island flavour. If you’ve been reading my notes, you’d know my kind by now. Pain is evident, but not the intimate variety you’d expect from esteemed songwriter like John Hiatt. The melancholy won’t bore you to death, but it sounded very much finding a required escape. It’s all about getting healed. Relief from heartache is more crucial to him than attempting to sort out what has he lost.
So damn easy to say that life’s so hard
Everybody’s got their share of battle scars
As for me, I’d like to thank my lucky stars that I’m alive and well…
It’d be easy to add up all the pain
And all the dreams you sat and watched go up in flames
Dwell on the wreckage as it smolders in the rain
But not me…I’m alive

The break up was a major inspiration behind this album which Chesney began working just weeks after the break-up as I read the newspapers. “It is tough to lose somebody you love,” Kenny told that newspaper. He seems to be down for quite long and he was completely disconnected from the following tours. He wondered if it was time to hang it up.

Ultimately, like ourselves, Kenny did heal, and he also passed on some of his emotions from the split into the material on his new album “Lucky Old Sun”. “Way Down Here” was not a fun song to write as he told to CMT, Country Music Television. It seems that he worked real hard getting out of tears by escaping to the Caribbean.

Where no one will ask cause nobody knows
That you’re not in my life anymore
And no one can tell the salt water from my tears

No the pull of the tide or the crash of the waves
Ain’t gonna wash your memory away
But theres a beautiful view of the end of the world from the pier
If I’m gonna be down, I’m gonna be down way down here …

I love Internet, and just two days of after releasing the album on 14th October, it’s on my iTunes. 99 cents for each song, its worthy whole of it! “Way Down Here” is the one if you wish to escape from your troubled time.

Is it possible to run away from your problems?


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I Love You through the Sunshine or the Rain

Life always holds as a strange island … at least, to me. Be it that new TV show with same name in Starworld or that BBC documentary, none could explain better. I work fifteen hours straight, not perfected what I do. Wish I could be some kind of android for the time-line what I’m assigned to. But, I try delivering things what is been promised. Maybe that takes away most of the precious time what my kids are entitled to. Though, I take away most of their time, they haven’t started complaining yet – maybe that seems usual to them – but reclaiming my inner bitch is a tough call.

Being a successful father is real hard – I fall far short than what I would expect from mine. Compensating them with toys? I would rather say – it’s no go for my kids, they are way smarter than their parents. I suspect, that can turn out to be a bad manipulation trick.

This weekend, I thought of getting some of the chores done by settling stuffs what I recently bought from US. 46 CDs, not less! Moving on with the thing called cataloging to those CDs was kind of time wasting effort. Children were jumping all over my CDs and who cares what I yell at them! I tend to melt inside when they smile at me, I had to smile back. Who wouldn’t?

Then, suddenly I picked up this newly released album from Kenny Chesney. He is one those few artists whose albums slip through into my catalog without tryouts. I was one of those fortunate to attend one of his concerts in Greensboro Coliseum, North Carolina. I still can remember taking an all night-er greyhound from Georgia. The great memories of that led me to pop that CD into my Pioneer systems and the following part has got me out of the writer’s block.

Everybody thinks I’ve got it all
Nobody really does, do they?
I’ve got more than I deserve, more than I ever dreamed
But there’s always a price you pay
It’s been an amazing road
I’ve been blessed, I know
But at the end of the day I go home alone …

Chesney as a songwriter here has everything someone can dreamt off, but it has it’s downside of living alone. All of this gives the impression that he is living a comfortable, family oriented middle-aged existence, surrounded by his wife and children, appreciating what he’s got and looking back on his life with a fond eye. This isn’t quite true — Chesney is leaving his thirties without a wife and kids, which makes this song celebrating close family feel a little odd to us. But, of course, real-life Kenny is a 39 year-old divorcee and, thus, this “Wife and Kids” hits closer to home. Following the dissolution of his short-lived marriage to Renee Zellweger he is longing for something which came in next verse …

I still hope someday I’ll have a wife and kids
Smiling faces running to the door when I walk in
Saying “Daddy’s home, you were gone too long …
What’d you bring me? Swing me. Let me show you what I did …”
I still dream about that look on a woman’s face
That says I love you through the good, the bad,
… the sunshine or the rain
Sometimes I wish I had someone to share my life with
Maybe I’ll have a wife and kids
Maybe someday….

The song is so hallmark sappy that it inadvertently makes a good argument for bachelordom. Free spirited?

Well, should you dare asking question on that? And “you are a loner”, my wife complains that pretty often.

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Lights will Guide You Home …

I wasn’t a great Coldplay addict until one of my friends gave me that “You, Me and Dupree”.

Oh, Please.

I know, I know! It’s not a serious movie, but it’s been endearing loads of movie goers. Well, I like watching Kate Hudson’s movie from the day I saw “Almost Famous”. And, no offence .. how could I forget Matt Dillon’s Oscar nominated performance in “Crash”?

This amazingly awesome song came up in the last scene when Matt and Owen are walking down the street back to the house with all the kids walking behind. I knew it was from Coldplay from the start, had to google couple of times to get to its title.

It really is a great comforting song, you might try it’s lyrics. It is loaded with more emotional stuffs to fuel this movie soundtrack arsenal. I might be close to android, but human needs healing – emotionally. My heart might work with predictive healing.

When you try your best but you don’t succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can’t sleep
Stuck in reverse …

Chris Martin wrote this special song for his wife Gwenyth Paltrow. It is basically about the death of her father. It truly sounds like that Chris sooths her during the darkest time of her life. He was trying to comfort her with this amazing verses …

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can’t replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

You will fall for this video [HD] like I did. It started with a scene of a solitary Martin strolling at night time through Kings Cross of London. The guitar work gets amazingly better as tempo picks up, Chris starts running towards the Reebok Stadium in Bolton. And then, you feel like you are up on the air when firework flares from both sides of the stage. It starts from being solitariness to being a massive sing-along with the whole crowd of stadium. It’s just stunning, might numb you till the end!

What else?

You have to see for yourself.

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